I feel like I'm coming to a crossroad in my life. Does that sound lame or what? But I have no clue as to where to go/what to do with this life that was given to me. I am afraid I am one of those destined to be bums/hobos. Not literally. But one of those that live the bum/hobo life of casuality, passivity, general chilling out-ness. Those who live with their parents, have average or free lance jobs. And I really do think I am cut out for this type of life, which has it's own benefits, but which I cringe at because I don't want to be seen as a social failure. I should study, work hard, go to grad school, make money. I had always assumed I would go to graduate school. But now I am not so sure. Not sure if I want to, not sure what purpose it would serve.

If I could do anything right now, I would drop out and move to somewhere in the mid-west. Are you shocked? I would get a regular job, a small apartment. And I could have time to do whatever I wished.

I want a slow life. A simple one. I think I am coming to discover some things about myself, becoming aware of my weaknesses, things I am and am not capable of doing. I am becoming realistic.